Unfortunately, adult videos are readily available for kids too. Courtney Danielle Boateng started watching porn when she was in elementary school. Regular viewing of "strawberries" led her to attempt suicide and hatred of her own body. Now the 23-year-old British woman recounts how her addiction consumed her until she dealt with it four years ago. For the first time, a girl saw oral sex between a man and a woman on the screen when she was only 10 years old. She understood that she was not allowed to watch this, but could not stop. Danielle has always been an inquisitive child and constantly asked questions on a variety of topics - from science to the animal kingdom. When her parents were at work or busy with other things, the girl looked for answers on the Internet.
In June 2007, Danielle graduated from elementary school. Her peers were already beginning to whisper about sex, so the girl decided to see what it was by entering “sex video” in the search box, expecting to see educational videos. Instead, a search brought her to a link on the Pornhub site. While her parents were on the first floor and her younger sister was playing in the next room, the young British woman plunged into the world of porn.
What she saw on the screen shocked Danielle, but the girl wanted to watch more and more. The porno video attracted her so much that the schoolgirl went to Pornhub several times a month and looked through different categories of "strawberries". Soon, the addiction intensified, and the girl could not live for several days without porn.
To hide her traces from her parents, Danielle deleted her search history, put her briefcase under the door to block the way if someone tried to enter her room while watching. She did not even tell her friends about her hobby.
The secret obsession continued through high school. The girl watched porn 2 - 3 hours a week. Usually, she chose a video with a romantic plot, and she did not like the scenes of aggression.
In 2013, Danielle's attitude towards porn changed. The British then turned 15 years old. The difficult period of adolescence and graduation from high school led to additional stress. The girl began to masturbate while watching adult videos, and thus relaxed. The orgasm gave her a sense of relief for a few minutes, but then she again wanted a new dose.
Danielle masturbated while watching porn two or three times a week. When friends admitted that they also sometimes watch videos of "strawberries", the girl felt relieved, but did not tell how strong her addiction was.
Before entering the university, the girl's state of mind was out of control. Increased anxiety and surging hormones made Danielle see a doctor. He advised her to sleep more and exercise, but that did not help. The British woman had the feeling that she was suffocating. As a result, she tried to commit suicide by taking a huge dose of paracetamol. The girl was found on the bathroom floor by her sister and called an ambulance.
Doctors saved Danielle, but the saddened mother asked why her daughter wanted to die. The girl was embarrassed to tell her about her passion for porn, but that was one of the main factors. The British woman became addicted to orgasms, using them to relieve anxiety attacks, but at the same time, sexual pleasure generated new desire.
Danielle's relationship with her ex-boyfriend in 2015 was the latest evidence of the devastating influence of porn. The girl turned 18 when she first had sex. Unfortunately, her expectations that everything would be like on the screen did not come true. There was no passion, no great pleasure. Five months later, they parted on the initiative of Danielle: she was not satisfied with their intimate life, although she did not tell the guy about it.
The British woman continued to masturbate while watching porn three times a week, despite being in a relationship. Then the girl realized that she was suffering from addiction. In addition, Danielle compared herself to porn actresses, which is why she formed a negative attitude towards her own body.
In March 2016, the girl decided to stop watching porn and masturbate. To deal with her growing anxiety, she started doing yoga, sports, journaling, hanging out with friends, and going to church. The British woman waited patiently, setting herself up that it would not be easy to change her life.
Danielle didn't tell anyone about her problem until April 2020. In the spring, she recorded a video confession and uploaded it to YouTube. For the first time, the girl honestly talked about how she tried to overcome anxiety with the help of porn. The video was viewed by more than 800,000 people, hundreds of comments were left to her with words of support. Many shared their own stories of struggling with the same addiction. Relatives and friends also supported the British woman and highly appreciated the fact that she found the strength to highlight this topic.
The girl began to learn more about the problems in the porn industry. She realized that this would limit her attraction. Danielle was shocked by the information about the exploitation of pornographic actresses. She no longer wanted to be indirectly involved in this.
Now the British woman no longer watches or misses porn. Danielle is not dating anyone yet, because she is waiting for the right guy to create a normal healthy relationship. She is pursuing a career in beauty and enjoying time with her family. The girl is no longer ashamed of confessions about her former addiction, because the struggle with her helped her to know herself better.
And for another British woman, Hannah Shevan Stevens, regular orgasms, on the contrary, made life easier. They relieve her of chronic pain from which the girl has suffered for many years.
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